Thursday, January 29, 2015

Narrators and Character - Multiple Claras in "Wieland"

One thing that struck me as I finished Wieland was the idea of multiple Claras. Like how we talked about the I-character and the I-narrator and how there were two Claras – the one in the present who is retelling the story as it happened to her and the past Clara who is being described in the story.
            But as I began the final chapter something occurred to me: aren’t there really THREE Claras? There's the one who is telling the story at the beginning of the novel (who by the end is clearly very emotionally traumatized not only from the events which have recently occurred to her and her family, but she is also further traumatized by recounting in detail these events), the I-character Clara who was maybe a bit naïve or “gifted with ordinary equanimity or foresight,” and then a third, future (kind of) Clara who narrates only the final chapter and is a person who is no longer grief-stricken and seems to have a much more clear view of the world.
            These different Clara’s kinds remind me of how when you’re doing research on an event for a paper of some kind, there are different types of sources you want to get. There’s the details from during the event (the I-character Clara), just after the event (the I-narrator Clara’s commentary on the occurrences), and then information about the event and what it could mean form commentary that comes a while after the event has concluded and resolved (the Clara of the final chapter).
This third Clara is the one whom I ended up having the most interest in. On some levels, she kinda has a certain amount of…..I don’t know what. But it makes us question ourselves and what has been presented to us in the novel when she tells us on the final page that the victims are to blame for the things that happened to them. “That the evils of which Carwin and Maxwell were the authors, owed their existence to the errors of the sufferers.” Okay, maybe this is the reaction that Brown wanted, but, at least in the world of today and what people our age debate the most about, this has GOT to cause some sort of reaction to the effect of bringing to conversation around to rape culture and how we can’t blame the victim.
Who knows? Maybe that statement speaks on some level about the ideology that we have always been exposed to since the beginning of this country’s independence. But it may also speak to the state of mind which Clara has come to be in since these events and is some sort of PTSD. Again, who knows?
I digress, sorry about the Segway there. Everyone was thinking it, I merely said it. ANYWAYS, part of why this third Clara is my favorite is because she acts as a denouement which also allows the reader to have some sort of closure as to what happens to the other characters other than assuming that Clara either was really ill and died or killed herself like she had contemplated so many times throughout the book.
I think her final lines about the victims being to blame though are a part of how much we trust her as a narrator. In the very beginning of the novel, we establish that she is a rational person and can be trusted (though this is somewhat questionable towards the end) but being able to see her again with full control of her faculties and not in the throes of sorrow gives us a sense of trust in what she says to be true.

I feel like she established this when she explained how she had recovered as far as you can after these sorts of events when she says, on the first page of that final chapter, “time will obliterate the deepest impressions. Greif the most vehement and hopeless, will gradually decay and wear itself out.” And from that moment onward we’re all like, “Yeah! She didn’t lose her mind!” Well, maybe she did for a while, but she got better after a bit, it just took some time. 

Saturday, January 24, 2015

Finding My Voice

To hear a poet read their work is quite an experience. You hear the emotion that is behind the words, where they pause, it’s not quite the same as reading on your own. This past week I was able to attend Claudia Rankine’s event here at school. I wasn’t originally going to go but I did, and I am so glad I did. There are many things I could talk about that night. How all the stories were true, and all these experiences happened to someone close to Rankine.  How race can enter the room in an environment that you thought was safe, and strike you with an unexpected blow.
I want to talk about the silence. That uncomfortable space in conversation, in life, that we so often ignore. What I noticed at the event was the silent conversations that were happening in these poems. The micro-aggressions. Things that were silent but screaming for your attention. After Rankine’s reading, and the Q&A I was able to meet her during the reception. I asked her about the silent conversations. We talked briefly on how we shouldn’t just let these things slip through our fingers, but rather point them out and address them. If someone is making you feel uncomfortable say it. Don’t get swallowed in the silence. Don’t let these things slide. Say something. Speak. Use your voice.
I told Rankine thank you. Thank you, for writing something that brings attention to things myself and my family have experienced.  Thank you, for reminding me that I don’t have to just stand and watch these things happen. Thank you, for reminding me I have a voice. Thank you, for making me realize that I need to use my voice. Thank you.

Thursday, January 15, 2015

Hey I'm Sarah

I don't really know what to say with these sort of things so I'll start with what I like to do. Whenever I have free time I like to bake muffins, breads & cookies. If I'm feel particularly fancy you can find me baking cheesecake. I LOVE baking, and everything I bake is from scratch, which may be a little more work but I find that the end results are fantastic! If you ever want baked goods, I'm your person, it's literally my favorite thing to do. These are two things I've baked recently:


Banana Nutella Muffins. Personal photography by author. 
Mini Homemade Monkey Bread. Personal photograph by author.
When I'm not baking I am usually doing science and working on my capstone. I'm a Biology major with a French minor, not the most popular combination but I like it.



Hey there

A little about me:

I am a Junior and a Psychology major here at Redlands. My hobbies include going to the gym, eating peanut butter and hanging out with my 2 sisters.  A lot of people think that we are triplets, but we are actually are a couple years apart. I love the sun and the warm weather, which is a nice escape from the cold weather in Lake Tahoe, where I am from.

Fun Fact: I was a abroad last semester in Salzburg, Austria and I spent my time traveling around Europe for 4 months.

#MyLife

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This isn't the first time I've made a blog though I've never used Blogger - usually I use WordPress, so this'll be interesting. I have to say, Blogger is more user-friendly than WordPress for people who haven't done something like this before.

So about me. Cool. Creative writing major, psych minor. I play two sports - swim and water polo; The events I usually swim are the 100free and 200fly, and I play center defender for polo, soI squat a lot. I have the same birthday as Harry Potter, love Adventure Time (kinda obvious with the giant BMO backpack), and nutella is beautiful. I'm also in Sigma here at Redlands. 

Whatever

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I'm Trevor, Idk what to say. I honestly dont have much to say. haha i rymed. Ill just be clear, I hate writing and I will do bullets in this post.
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